i love this song though it brings so much memories about my past relationship. it makes me smile that i was once that happy with that person. no regrets in lost love, just learning and good memories! :)
gender, social status, distance or even age aren’t even issues with me when i date people. when i love,i love real and i don’t post any questions. i my ex once asked me “why do you love me?” i couldn’t give her any answer simply because i dont have any reason why i love her. i just do.i will not tell her that i love her because she’s pretty, why ? ‘cause if she’s no longer beautiful i wont love her anymore?! i am not the kind of person who looks at people on how they appear. i love the person , the soul ans everything about them including the flaws and imperfections. tell me if im loving the wrong way!
if anything happens tonight, it’s him to be blamed!!! i swear. you wont have to ask anymore just go after him!
like most of you ( probably) , i had the hardest time battling with myself about coming out and be openly gay. i have those what if things in me. i didnt know what to expect, primarily because of the culture of the society that i am in. being gay is not accepted whole-heartedly, i once had that experience when one of my brothers saw a gay guy walking in the streets and he shouted ” gay!!! crucify!!!” i was like, what the hell? let the person be. with that, i told myself not to come out. believe me, i want to be free from all those things and just be me but you know i am scared, really scared. i am my dad’s princess ( i am an only daugther and i dont wanna break his heart) and coming out in the open will crush him. i tried to stay in the closet for the longest time that i could ever imagine, since 7th grade actually. i even tried dating guys to make me change and be straight but hey, you are who you are and you cant flip that and change right?. so yeah. It was not until recently where i told myself that i am so tired of pretending to be someone else just so people would see me normally and would act normal around and so i came out to my closest friends ( the ones i only trust).i told my brother and some of my cousins about it too. my eldest cousin even asked me about my posts on facebook ( while i was in a relationship with my then- girlfriend). my parents dont have an idea about me being gay but bet they have an idea. parents always know before anyone does. well, my door first off is the very evidence that i am gay… the word GAY was spelled all over it and the phrase ’ i heart LGBT’ was written there too. i feel half as happy because i am me when i am around those people who know and i can express everything that i have inside in here and in my other networks. it feels amazing to be “half out” but i bet that i would feel super ecstatic if i can tell the world of who i really am. it’s a process and i hope you guys are there to lead me through it and be with me all through this process :) it’s a process, a very long process but i am willing to do whatever it takes to make things better for me and everybody else.
will you be with me in this?!